10/17/2006
i miss him most (ESPECIALLY) in the mornings, nights, when i come home, and when i leave. i'll just feel this hopeless crap in me. feeling all weak and ughy inside. weird descriptions. yes, i know. i thought so something, but i forgot. let's just make do with that, huh? i guess i miss him in the mornings cuz when i wake up and come outta my room, he's usually there, meowing like crazy, and he'd rub his head against you and all. and just before i go to sleep, (thats usually the time i think most in the whole day.) i'd lie staring at the ceiling and remember how it would be so nice and cosy with him beside me every night.. sitting on my tummy, and ooh. it'd be warm. you kinda get a warm, fuzzy feeling inside you. its just really nice.. but for the last few nights, i'd stare at the empty space he used to occupy. and i'd miss his melodic purr. and i would miss the times i come back home and he'd greet me at the door. or even the times when he'd be sleeping on the couch. but for the last few days, i'd look at the couch.. and there'd be nothing. no cheeta. nothing. at least i'm not in denial, right? i know he's gone forever. man. i wish i didnt say that. ugh.


psychedelico... i keep saying that word today. dont even know what it means. -_-" i'm super lame. some mental state, maybe? i dont know what to blog. so. i'll just talk bout my day i guess. went to some tuas incineration plant or something. i cant remember, too busy talkin. the trip there was realyl short. about 20 min? a video and a 5 min tour. ugh. the bus journey was so dang torturing. hot. stuffy. bumpy. the ride there wasnt that bad. i wodner why. more fun and it didnt seem that long. the way back? hell. i wonder whats so fascinating about watching RUBBISH. who cares? big UGH there!! so well. yeah.

wanted to go to vivo city's tangs for shopping. instead, i went to orchard with sha. i love the earrings, necklace and the bracelet! and sha, you know you owe me money, (= hahah. i had tonsa fun!

i'm tired. bye.